SURRENDER IS NOT ALWAYS A BAD THING!
Today a friend had a vision of me, while she was praying for me. In the vision I was standing on a large rock with both hands held high to the sky. She immediately sensed the Rock was the Lord Jesus. Then she heard the word; surrender. I knew immediately what that meant.
I was having one of those days where I woke up with a plan for my day and nothing was going the way I had planned. I wanted to spend time with the Lord in His word studying. One thing after another came up that took me away from that. As my frustration escalated, my determination grew more fierce. I suppose my Dad would say; 'That is the Italian in you Tina Marie.' I have often been told that I'm like a bull dog at times, I don't give us without a good fight. After the fight I might be bloody and bruised, but I can stand tall saying; "I gave it my best shot!"
Many times in my life that spirit of determination has served me well and I am thankful for it. As I have grown with the Lord, the word surrender, has taken on a whole new meaning to me. Surrender is not so much about surrendering to an enemy or giving up on my mission, as it is yielding to my Heavenly Father and trusting Him to fight my battles for me.
Today the Lord is asking me to surrender my time, my schedule and my plans to him. He is standing lovingly at a distance waiting on my response. I know HE will love me either way. Yet, I love the Lord so much I want to obey Him. One of the things I love about Papa God is, He understands the reason my hands tremble as I surrender.
In my mind I hear the Lord whispering; "Tina Marie, surrender is not always a bad thing. In fact, I long to give you so much more than you are surrendering to me."
